Well, I've go to the point in my life where I'm about to finish collage after many straggles along the way. I'm about to leave my parent house. Becoming an adult, although at 23 years of age it's debatable, if you will. I guess that what scares me the most is the fact that I'll have to go and make a life for my self. That is easer said then done, well actually it just that easy. As I come closer to the door of adulthood the more I realize that I don't want to go through it. I don't want to have to deal with people that don't see thing like me. It might sound selfish but it's just the fear of what other think about me.

So to go through that door, I need to get my emotion under control. To do so I'm trying to find why I do the thing I do. Why I lose temper when friend want to help me, when i don't know how to handle pain. I end up doing stupid thing that only hurt me and others. So I need to find myself, my true self. Then I'll be able to go through that door way.

It's not all but at lease that what I'm trying to tell my self. I only have school two time a week which leave time to do some project or time to find my self. Although, I did leave one good project but I'll be back to it when I'm ready to be then man that i should be.

After all, you don't become a men by wining all the time, now do you?